The Menstrual Cycle And Letting Go

The menstrual cycle and letting go

The Menstrual Cycle And Letting Go
The Menstrual Cycle And Letting Go

my thoughts and confessions about how periods relates to shifting; nothing is fact

The gel began to warm up against my skin, the blanket covering my chest shielded me from the man giving me the ultrasound. The stick poked at my side, under my breast and then the place where my spleen should have been; I wasn’t born with one. This happens a lot when you come out with a heart defect. The nurse wasn’t looking for a baby but for the beats of my own heart. He sounded embarrassed whenever he told me to move positions or when he left the room, so I could change into a gown. His nature reminded me of when I was in middle school and a boy would agonizingly ask me out because of a dare. After it was done, I peeled the stickers off my body, wiped the gel away, got dressed, and made my way to the room where I was supposed to wait for my doctor. Like usual, the wait was longer than the interaction. She told me everything looked fine, I was healthy, and asked if I was getting regular exercise. After a monotonous conversation about figure skating, my mother's voice chimed in, asking about an IUD.

 Several months ago, I was debating getting one to prevent my period. I get very emotional during my period; it’s all very painful. I scripted them to be very light in my realities, so I wouldn’t have to deal with the tough parts. I was wondering why I still wanted to keep it; I notice many don’t. But I noticed that all my life my view on bleeding was that of a burden. I laughed alongside other women who cursed Eve's name, I groaned with my mother whenever she was on hers, and I never considered the reasons for tracking it. I never looked at it in any positive way.

A month or two ago, the feelings it brought were so heavy the moment I stood, I felt every emotion that I had been burying in me the days prior release from my thighs; I was so sore, like I would crumble. I lay down and cried. Then I started to notice that when I bleed I could feel all the things I’ve held onto leave my body, physically and emotionally. It’s when I noticed this I stopped being shameful of my period and started welcoming it.  Tiny rant: I realized I had a negative view of my period because of the many men who deemed it as sinful and disgusting; something that women should be ashamed of. I didn’t even realize this, and this is coming from someone who regularly deconstructs societal norms; that's how ingrained it was in my mind..sigh 

Before I started regularly shifting, I often held grudges. I never let go of anything anybody ever did to me; good or bad. Now I am not saying that you won’t shift if you do this; I am talking about myself personally. I had heard of the term letting go here and there. In the title of posts I liked to bookmark for later but never actually read, and in Reddit posts about how it changed the way they view shifting. But I never really understood what they were talking about. I had read about this girl who used her dreams to discover her blockages and such, but I didn’t have any intention of working on that. Because frankly, I didn’t think I had any. Ironically, that night I had two dreams about two people wronging me. 

One dream was with my biological father, he was very abusive. After his yelling and hitting, I ran away, climbed a highway wall and ended up walking along a dried-out river taking photos along the way. At the end of the dream, I was talking with my mom in the car. 

The other dream was with my stepfather. My mother was ignoring me and dismissing the fight. In this dream, I acted like a child alongside him. I was screaming like a toddler, throwing a fit because I wasn’t getting what I wanted. I don’t even remember what we were fighting about. But I had woken up from that dream realizing that they only mattered if I had put my energy into them. The problem was fixed when I didn’t pay mind to it, but it remained when I engaged with it. That's when I got it. Letting go isn’t about forcing yourself to forget–it’s about not engaging. I used to have an opinion on these things, but now they’re just people I once knew. When a thought about them pops up, I don’t fight it or feed into it. I just let it come and go. For me, letting go is refusing to dwell on shit that doesn’t matter. You’re choosing to step into a new reality, so why waste energy on one that doesn't serve you? 

It seems to relate, if you think about it in a poetic way. The moment I started understanding what was happening to me during my period, I also understood how my emotions were holding me back. It’s that stage of letting the emotions flow out and then be done with it. Be with them and let them go on their way. I see my period differently than before. I sat on the couch with my mom, it was early, we were the only ones awake. It was when she was talking about how her period came early I interrupted saying I changed my mind; I don’t want an IUD.  It’s natural, my body lives by the phases it produces so why would I want to stop it? Now, I felt that stopping it would do more harm than good, like I wouldn’t have the chance to let go of anything. That all of my burdens would be stuck in my thighs feasting on my legs refusing to let me walk. My grudges that stayed in place long before those two dreams prevented me from the best outcome in this reality. When I started putting my energy into better things instead of past events I received an apology and finally parted ways with another. 

Whenever I have a negative or positive thought about past grievances I don’t fight or feed into it, I let it come and move on. Don't dwell.

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1 month ago

before i had shifted i used to think shifters were the most open-minded people. Having known of the limitlessness, the ability to do so much, the knowledge of already being so much. I thought their experiences might make them better people, distinguished and graceful in their words and presence. But honestly, now, having this blog and a space to interact with so many shifters, I no longer think that way. It's all the same, a mirror of this current reality. Oppression, hatred, ignorance, the same old foolishness and denseness. Sometimes I feel terribly sad over it. Whenever I log on to this blog, I feel im in a huge crowd, being pushed around. Loud alarms and bells ringing all around me, pamphlets of... i don't know, worthless information like the prediction of the dates of the world ending, aka the same "Actually, i think-" "no, this is wrong because-" "you'll never shift because-" "Im so tired of people doing this because-" all scattered around in shifting tags. But i feel so euphoric that now i've shifted. Now im grounded in places better than this. I no longer have to rely on these people. I won't have to interact with these people ever again. Then i am able to put on a fake smile, let go of some things, and read the same "wild" opinions again. Knowing one day i'd be deserving of eternal freedom when i'll break away from this reality, and forget. Each and everything. When the time's right. I suppose I hate humanity. I can't do anything about it. I would be foolish to try to change the vast majority of people, who are reflecting themselves boldly all around me. The only place I could ever be comfortable in, is the world i've created inside of me. What I portray of myself on here, is a show. Nothing strikes me, maddens me from here, that's why. It will be a waste of my own energy.


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2 months ago

i love your account. that’s all! sending love x

this is so sweet! Thank you!!


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4 months ago

The answer is within yourself.

The Answer Is Within Yourself.
The Answer Is Within Yourself.

I've seen that a lot of people are asking others what they should do on their shifting journey and I find myself conflicted with it. Of course there is nothing wrong with asking for help, but at a point in the endless road of questions the only answer you will find is your own. 

How do you think we have all gotten this far? People who used this practice long before us didn’t have any sources or online forums to help them. There has been an infinite number of people who have been able to reach endless life, and yet you think you can’t? You should start thinking for yourself, sit with your thoughts, and be alone. What does shifting mean to you? Dissect it. Forget the terms you learned on your way here and indulge in yourself instead of others. People today seem to need constant gratification. As much knowledge as you have at your own fingertips it weakens your ability to think for yourself. To me, part of the idea of shifting is being with yourself, being with your thoughts, creating new ideas on what reality is or how it works. You don’t need to be right nor do you need one single answer. All you need is what is important and dear to you. 

We are always evolving, without this trait we would be doomed to repeat. We would not be able to evolve without our mind. When we have lost connection to our knowledge we have lost connection to ourselves. Shifting is what you want it to be. 


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2 weeks ago

im cooking up a shifting post so deviously philosophically scientific that Hugh Everett himself is tap dancing in his grave as I type this up

i have only my beautiful ask to thank for this you know who you are


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2 weeks ago

I don't want to guess that it's me but I also genuinely don't know if my ask about hrrtshape and her post led you to piece something better than Shakespeare's work... 😔 *sob

Anyway, my heart just cracked open a little at your latest post, thank youuuuuuuu regardless for your blog!!!🎀🫶🏼

oh it was you ! !

Now I don't want to lead you into thinking that what I will say is the best piece of literature you will ever read because its DEF NOT. It will sound like I smoked 20 joints at once while watching government conspiracy videos………………….. It might take me a day or two to write this up but don't expect anything like Ada Lovelace level of critical thinking but I will try my best lol

ily


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1 month ago

Hii

when i attempt to shift every night i experience a really vivid dreams like it feels veryy real and sometimes the dreams are about my Drs but the only thing iam nott aware in it so how to be fully aware in there because i feel thats the key to fully shift 🥹

Hii

Maybe try an awake method. I often dream about my drs too and right after I wake up from them I begin to start my method and shift. So when you wake up from these dreams you can use that to shift.


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1 week ago

Hey love <3

I had a questions i thought asking you.

It is regarding scripting,

Is it possible to script to shift to let's say the year 2027 and watch like any movie that is gonna release that year and then shift back and tell everyone?

It is sort of like predicting the future.

Most people say it is possible but you will just shift back to another reality where you know about the movie and others don't.

So can you please clarify this and also can you please share your experiences with scripting because I am always scared that my script will not plan out as I intended it to be because I will miss so many details or not able to imagine it clearly😅.

Hii !

Yes that is possible because there is an infinite amount of possibilities, as long as you have the intention to shift to see the movies and shift back to where they would also be the same.

Scripting is full proof, if you know where you want to end up it should work out. Everything you script will work out how you want it, most of the time even better. Even if you can't imagine a full picture of it. And even if you can, It's one thing to imagine a forest with vibrant trees, loud birds, and a light mist in the air, but being there is so much more fulfilling.

I've had some scary experiences with shifting but those have only been accidental shifts. Ones I haven't scripted for, but that dosent mean everytime you don't script its going to be bad. I've also had some really nice shifts without scripting anything. The architecture in my drs is one of my favorite things, it's all so much better than I first thought it could be. I have OCD here, and having the opportunity to get rid of it is something that I'm also grateful for.


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9 months ago

space stalker dr

I wanted to info dump about some of the lore about my space dr; specifically some of the planets.

If you want to know the basics about this dr click here.

Adu - a water planet on the out skirts of the aven system

Space Stalker Dr
Space Stalker Dr

Endless oceans stretch as far as the eye can see, scattered with islands, sky-high towers, and diverse culture. Reaching towards the heavens, Adu's towers are feats of engineering that serve as hubs for goverment and avation. Most of the towers house airship docks, control centers, and residential quarters for workers. Hundreds of docking platforms accommodate airships of all types. These docks are equipped with maintenance facilities, fueling stations, and cargo handling systems. Below, adu holds a network of submerged structers. These underwater buildings are desinged for research, mining, and sea exploration. These facilites are near the few islands adu has. The islands hold most of the citizens and travlers-allthough some travlers could be coming for work and staying in one of the many avation buildings.

major exports; water, ore, starships,

Major imports; Foodstuff, tech, workers

Background: Adu was one of the first planets to help form the Aven allince. It also helped build the space stalker guild. Many companies invest in groups of bounty hunters, imploying them by giving them a home and monthly pay. Of course the pay does vary from hunter to hunter, it all depends on how much criminals you bring in. Adu supplies many ships for intersteller travel as well.

Space Stalker Dr
Space Stalker Dr

Feel free to ask any questions! All art by John Harris.


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1 month ago

hi! i am completely new to shifting, i know about the basics like methods and scripting but i just wanted to ask if theres anything else that i should know about??

Hi! All you really need to know is where you want to go and have the belief that you are there ! There isn't any rules to shifting so have fun!


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1 month ago

Is it possible to shift without any method? Like just reprogramming your brain every day and listening to subliminals help?

Yes, all you need is an awareness.


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