I Got 'According To Yes' By Dawn French And I Am In Love With It So Far! Near The End Within A Week!

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The fresh start of a new beginning

There is only that much a girl like me can keep to herself. 19 year old university student with a huge family can sometimes mean ALOT of secrets, backstabbing, tears, happiness and gossip. Entering my 20s soon and starting my second years of study I found a new way to let my inner self speak out! I have no idea how I am going to start sharing everything or where to start.So many things going on in my life (which yes I know is happening in everyone's life not just mine) and I have so little ways to just let loose. Hopefully you guys enjoy my posts and blogs and maybe relate to it a little bit! 

Our culture has accepted two huge lies. The first is that if you disagree with someone’s lifestyle, you must fear or hate them. The second is that to love someone means you agree with everything they believe or do. Both are nonsense. You don’t have to compromise convictions to be compassionate.

Rick Warren (via staypozitive)

Hello again.

It has been a while since I have blogged and ranted and vented my emotions, feelings and thoughts. Although not much has changed, a lot still has changed. 

To believe I would graduate after three years without any problems or bumps along the road was very naive of me. Reaching the end of my third year of uni only to find out I have to resit an exam, resulting in me not graduating with my friends has shattered me. I have not much to say about that apart from how disappointed I am at myself. However, this has also shown a lot about the people I thought I had surrounded myself with. The people I thought that would always be there for me, proven to be very wrong indeed. I have met some amazing friends along the way and it has taken me 3 years to realise how shit I am at making and choosing friends. I had not learned how to do this up until the end of my third year of uni. I don’t regret anything. In fact I am glad a lot of things happened the way they did, otherwise I wouldn’t have met the love of my life and I wouldn’t have met the most amazing friends in these last couple of months. It is very cliche indeed but life sometimes has to be full of cliches and cheese for you to realise how good life can be. 

I have been through a lot and many people do not know that about me. The family I thought would stand by me in difficult times could not be part of my difficult times because of their narrow mindedness and shallow mindedness and their greed and love for reputation. I have always and will always adore my parents but they have let me down so much lately, sometimes even to the point of not being able to come back from it. I have endured a lot of wounds and suffered a lot through the words that had been chucked at me by my sisters and parents but it has only made me realise.... 

You find your soulmate, your love, your life, in that one person, and everything else does not matter anymore. Every heartbreak, every let down, every pain, all can be forgotten with just one moment with that one person. That one person I can call at any time of the day and he will always stand by me. And that is what I have realised... you lose a lot of people, you fall out, you stop calling your home “home” but you gain that one person, who you want to spend the rest of your life with. He or She will become your home, your shelter, your life and I can honestly say, I have never felt so safe in my life before as I do now with him by my side. I’m proud to be his. 

Its the time where you have to think about what you really want! Do you want to live to please others? Go out there and find your soulmate, find your love, find your life and live it. To the fullest. Everyone deserves a better life, only a few know how to make their life a better life. You will get there. In time. 

xoxo

Hello again.

Hmmm, it's been a while since my last blog, and a lot has changed since. For starters: Happy New Year! 2016 will be our year! Yes we may pretend for a few months that this year will be different but it really won't be. It will be better for some, it will be worse for some, and it may stay the same for others. But how much can really change in a year? 2015 has been one of my best and worst years! I've been through the worst break up but also managed to pass another year of uni! See it's not all bad... Plus loosing weight and getting fit after the break up was one of the most accomplished goal of my year! Ups and downs, you grow stronger, you grow wiser and you grow older.. That's all there is to another year! You can make it or break with your own hands. I do not believe in a New Years resolution. Somebody asked me what mine would be for 2016 and I quite frankly told them that a resolution is pointless. I like to think that whatever success, whatever goal you achieve and whatever kindness you do throughout the year is a resolution in disguise. The ones you haven't planned always go to plan. There is no point telling yourself that you're going to get fit because it's a beginning of a new year when you're going to give up in 1 week because you're mentally not ready to achieve this goal. Give yourself time and let it happen when you are ready. This is for any type of goal that you might have. Everyone has been through a difficult time and mourned for a long time without realising how long they have been doing so. There is no shame to be upset about something that you may have lost that was once your everything. To me, he was everything. It pained me so much. 6 months have passed and I still can't believe that it happened the way it did or why it happened the way it did. Sometimes it is best not to remind yourself of the things that you have lost but of the things that you have gained. It will always get better even if it gets worse before it gets better. Keep your chin up and walk through this year with pride and confidence! Be thankful for what you have, stay humble and make the best of it! Until next time! Xoxo

The Tory Burch Ella bag is a nice big tote to carry everything under the sun.

Cling to me

It wasn't until today that I realised I need to BACK OFF. So addicted to tiny little big things in life that may be my way of coping with life?! NO GOOD. I have surrounded myself with the most amazing human beings and it's time to let go of the others and the objectives that cling me to some.. ( never wise to keep old things) don't do it!! My boyfriend clearly seems to hate it when I joke around being too clingy.. I say joking.. Muhahaha! Well the weekend is coming which means fortunately for him I'll be gone! Thank god. Need a time out! Always necessary even if you're in the bestest relationship ever. Just a little summary of my day basically. I also have bought a new wifi printer which is soo complicated... I will be basically printing things 24/7 after I figure out how to work it! Okay lovelies! Until then! Xoxo

Yoga

My first ever yoga session completed. I feel no different than before, just exhausted from what I felt like was an hour of lying down and inhaling, exhaling, and of course the random ‘ommm shanti,ommm shanti’ chanting. However, I would still recommend it! Definitely worth a try to see how you feel about it. I did like the way my mind just went blank for a whole hour and I had nothing but shanti on my mind (shanti means peace btw).

Free yourself.

Xoxo

Too pretty 🙆💁

The finishing touch on being #GRAMMYs ready? A pop of color, fabulous makeup and a fun, feisty attitude. Good luck, COVERGIRL @katyperry!