Roses Are Red, That Much Is True, But Violets Are Purple, Not Fucking Blue.

I can’t believe there are people who hate Azi.

If Crowley still loves him, so should you.

And yes, Crowley still loves him.

He waited outside.

The love is still very much there.

They’re Just Not Talking Right Now.

So, reblog if you still love Mr. A.Z. Fell

These last two episodes have been amazing! One thing I’d like to point out are Alastor’s actions throughout the fifth episode. First, he makes himself look like a good guy/father even though we haven’t really seen any build up to a father-daughter relationship with him and Charlie which makes me think he’s doing it mostly to anger Lucifer (or maybe it has something to do with Lilith? I know that’s a theory going around and I like it a lot.) or he actually does kind of care and just wanted to cause chaos. Then we see him threaten Husk. We’ve seen him go demonic before, but what he did with the lights and his form was genuinely terrifying. Another thing during that scene that made me pause was the fact that Husk actually had to courage to talk to Alastor like that in the first place. It’s still a horrible relationship, but I still don’t think it’s the kind of relationship Angel has with Valentino other than obvious reasons of Alastor not being into that. It shows that Alastor’s reaction might not have been normal and was unexpected. Also, I’ve seen people talk about the chain difference which I thought was really interesting. Then towards the end, with Mimzy. Do you think it’s because of Lilith that he’s protecting the hotel? That’s a “friend” he's had since he was alive and it’s implied he’s protected her before. She was shocked when he asked her to leave. I NEED TO KNOW WHY ALASTOR IS THERE!! Hopefully in the next two episodes. Do you think the reason why he asked Mimzy to go is because Lilith or someone else saw that she could be a threat and made him ask her to go? Or was that all him and he’s starting to actually care? He’s such an unpredictable character and this entire season we’ve been chasing after any evidence on what he might be doing. Same thing with Lilith, as her face was blurred out in the episode. And what about Eve? What happened to her? Maybe it’s not Lilith but Eve that has Alastor’s leash?

Nifty hugs Alastor’s legs. Alastor might not have been Charlie’s dad, but he sure is Nifty’s. I love Lucifer’s and Husk’s faces while everyone else is actually happy to see him.

I like how we all took a collective look at Vox and thought ‘What a pathetic excuse of a man’, and loved him even more for it.

Writing is exactly like this

Writer's Corner

Also something really important I want to point out about Aziraphale's religious trauma.

It's often framed as him being directly abused by Heaven, generally emotionally. And while I don't doubt he's been belittled at points - probably not by Gabriel, the iconic exemplar of the Toxic Positivity boss, but we know how Michael and Uriel etc. can be - it also seems like he's received quite a lot of praise and has generally managed to pull off the appearance of being A Good Angel, or at least a satisfactory one. I don't think, and this is controversial, but I don't think Heaven was usually overtly hard on him.

Because that's not how this kind of cult mentality usually operates. Instead, it teaches you to abuse yourself. Your overseers don't have to directly hurt or insult you if you're so ingrained with fear of failure by the culture you were brought up in that you constantly question yourself as not good enough.

It's not as... satisfying, I guess? As an external abuser being the main issue. But it's a lot more real. At least to me, because I suffered so much anxiety over being 'good' when I was a kid, and it wasn't from direct abuse. It was absorbed from the culture I was surrounded by. I picked it up by osmosis from society at large, and it tormented me. I worried, I doubted, there was a time I literally feared going to Hell. And I wasn't raised strongly religious. My mother certainly treated me as a Good Kid, and never gave even the suggestion that I wasn't. But I felt that way anyway. And it tore me apart. Because internalizing that shit makes it so much harder to fight.

And to be clear at this point, I am not saying Heaven isn't abusive. I just think the nature of its abuse is more subtle and insidious than it's often given credit for. And - this is even harder to accept, but it's true, and it's important - it's not just abusive to Az. All the angels are victims of it. Yes, even Gabriel. The moment he, one of the most powerful forces in Heaven, steps out of line, we see that no one is exempt. Never even mind Muriel, who is literally on the lowest rung of the Heavenly ladder and has probably never been told they're worth anything beyond being, you know, an angel, so at least you're better than humans and demons.

It's a contrast with Crowley, who has long since accepted most (not all, there are definitely some deep issues remaining, but they're nothing like Aziraphale's) of his internal doubts and struggles. His fears are almost entirely external. He doesn't beat himself up if he fucks up. He doesn't have to. There are people happy to beat him up for him. So when things go really bad for him, his instinct is to run. To get out of the way of harm as much as possible.

The fact that Aziraphale is harder on himself than anyone else could be is a vital part of his character. He self-punishes. He self-criticizes. He feels awful every time he breaks the rules in the slightest, even though he isn't usually caught at it. Crowley can find some safety in solitude if he keeps his wits sharp and his head down. Aziraphale can't, because he carries Heaven's conditioning with him at all times. He doesn't need oversight, it doesn't take external threats to keep him in line. You don't need direct threats when literally everyone in your celestial workplace has seen firsthand the consequences of rebellion.

I don't know if I'm making sense here. Again, this is informed by personal experience and I can't claim to be unbiased. But I see so much internalization with Aziraphale. He literally can't even accept praise without being nervous as hell, and I don't think it's fear of punishment or ridicule that's his primary motivation. He simply cannot ever be good enough for himself.

That's how they get you.

Anyway, I think it's why his reaction to disaster is the opposite to Crowley's, why he feels he has to turn and face it and somehow avert the horror (or, alternatively, find some way to reconcile it in his head and accept it - because let's be real, that's often what happens) rather than get himself away. He's less afraid of failing his superiors than he is of failing himself. And God, who is, objectively, the biggest abuser in the entire story.

You know when your obsessed with a show and you introduce said show to a friend, but their not AS into it as you are and so when you go on hour rants about your theory’s and how you watched the show seven times, they look at you like your crazy. Couldn’t relate.

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I’m actually starting to get really frustrated with the Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss fandom. It’s ok to not like some parts of the show, that’s normal, but to actively either make something up, or take something way to personally is not. If you don’t like the show, STOP WATCHING IT!!!! I’m not talking about everyone, but the people that are criticizing every little thing Vivienne does just to start drama are just stupid. Of course she makes mistakes. Of course she makes wrong decisions. She’s a human with flaws that’s trying to provide content. If you like the show, but don’t like her then don’t pay attention to it or just don’t watch the show. Some people have worked really hard on this show, don’t criticize them because you want attention. (I’m not saying everyone that criticizes the show does it for drama/attention. I’ve seen some pretty valid complaints, but I’ve also really stupid ones. Don’t ruin a show for someone just because YOU don’t like it.)

I know this is kind of a popular question, but how powerful is Alastor? He was surprised when Adam broke his staff, he fights with Lucifer, etc. So is the deal he has weakening him? Was he more powerful before? Is that why he’s so stressed out, because he knows he’s more vulnerable? What about the wing comment he made during his part of “The Show Must Go On”? The stitches on his smile suggests that he literally can’t stop smiling, or at least feels like he can’t. I’m not sure if Lilith is the one who owns Alastor, but it’s still not a coincidence that they were both missing at the same time. He really is one of the most beautifully written characters because he’s such a complex character with complex emotions that we don’t know a lot about but still try to figure him out. This is a bit of a ramble, but I really hope we get more of him in the second season. I’m really liking the Roo theory right now because, to me, it makes the most sense.