I Should Have Counted The Freckles On Your Cheeks

You are what you made yourself.

it’s raining,

so i miss you starts at 8:29 am, i could fall asleep right now, it’s so peaceful and i’m thinking about you.

trust and truth, my lover you see through all of my flaws— “you exist differently” your favorite thing to say to me, you’re the kind of weather that gardens love

i’ve been learning about myself as of late and i’ve realized a few things, jealousy… it doesn’t feel good. but i guess a part of my fears of losing you is something that i’m trying to let go of because baby, love doesn’t last forever and that’s okay. i want to let go of all the anxiety, the sadness, the grief, the pain. i want to accept them wholeheartedly. you will not hurt me, because i trust you won’t. you have my heart, you have it all.

i can hear the thunderstorms closing in, i wonder if you’re having a sweet and soft dream about your favorite places— do you think that the universe tries its hardest every single day to bring us together? i can only hope that there’s divine intervention happening somewhere, but humans being humans can also be something familiar enough for us to stay. just kiss me wherever you need to, i’ll be right here

it’s 8:37 am and my mind is running wild, hey, do you remember when we walked downtown late at night and got lost in the city? i can still hear your laughter, i can still see my smile. let’s get back to that sometime soon, yeah?

i think i have a terrible time keeping secrets away from you because i’m so excited to talk to you, to tell you that i’ve been thinking about you, it seems you also have the same problem

you say that it takes courage to own up to your mistakes, i don’t want to live a life of shame. my heart raised high, my soul open wide, my love attached to your heartstrings, they say that unknown locations are the best vacations— get lost with me anywhere, anytime and i’ll fall in love with you more than enough times

your intuitions are correct, always. i just wanted to tell you that. i think you have a hard time trusting yourself sometimes because of the way that you’ve perceived the world from your youth— trust that thing beating inside of your chest, it knows. i promise.

you’ll always be my favorite way to experience love, light-hearted and tender, rough on the edges when necessary, but all things great fire-started by your constant need to know if i still love you.

i do. i do still love you. we’re alright, sweetheart. we’re going to be alright.

and if the rain stops, and you’re awake while i’m asleep, i just wanted you to read this and know that it’s authentic and genuine.

thank you for being my best friend, even if we’re no longer a couple so day, even if we do prove that things can last forever. you know something?

it’s going to be a grand adventure regardless of our outcome.

i just wanted you to know that you’ll always have a home, right here. whenever it rains, and you’re reminded of me— i won’t be too far away. i’ll be wherever the flowers grow. and you’ll be right where the sun kissed the sky, i’ll be waiting there for you.

“You must understand, I miss you even though I’ve gone silent.”

— N.M.Sanchez

telling the story about the day i met you, still warms me inside out.

“You allow yourself to love people, because you think it’s what truly makes you happy. But when it gets hurt, you start falling apart and may think of stopping yourself to care for anyone ever again. The truth is, love isn’t always described as ecstasy, it is surely a mix of misery and joy. Love makes us grow, we learn different things. Allow yourself to get hurt sometimes, it is somehow what makes our lives worth living, with the zigzag road, you get into your destination stronger and braver.”

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Now I look for nothing and I find you in everything because my nothing is everything, nothing is me, everything is you, you are me and I am you.

don't let your happiness depend on something you may lose.. ☁ (at Surya Chaur)

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You will get over her slowly, and you will know how to cover your scars and get heal by yourself.