Stay Still

more art in this style !! this time @/nathanarmageddon’s oc jackson (he grows up to be evil dont take pity on him)

WAIT DID I TAG THE RIGHT PERSON😭 WHERES ADRIAN

merry late christmas guys life and uni are bumming me so hard so ive done basically no personal art for ages

but here yous go some of @egoisticqueerunderanydefinition ‘s ocs PD and pix!!! both my headcanon versions ofc this was their christmas present

more to come hopefully idk. desperate for money if anyone wants a commission in this style??

god i love creating a new tumblr and having nish followers here’s a photo of the breakfast in bed my boyfriend brought me for my post boxing day hangover just because i can. the sandwiches had the good chicken on them and the tortillas are like cheesy roll ups but in a more triangular shape. there’s a fucking crepe. and a snowman christmas chocolate. one of the sandwiches was a fucking heart. god bless

W. What is happening what have I done

PAIN!!!!!! drew rain and pix for artfight bc i hate and love them

they are so bad together i love it

credit to @/diseased_boy on most platforms they created pix and i am eternally grateful

Am I the only one having vivid amino flashbacks with these communities or,,,

a doodle of abbey i did with a new ibis paint brush

abbey will have a long hard day of screaming at everyone and telling them she hates them and some very oddly personal insults and then rots in the bottom bunk of her childhood bed staring at the drawings she drew on the wooden slats of the top bunk thinking about how much she hates herself

that’s what’s happening here basically the idea is that she’s just had a row with Asher and now she’s on their childhood bunk bed missing them and regretting her actions

abbey and asher argue a lot and it’s always abbey that starts it. she blames asher for being able to get out of their horrific household while she feels like she’s forced to stay and look after their dad

(until asher drops out of uni because they become an alcoholic and for the first time ever they are NOT the favourite their dad doesn’t HAVE a favourite anymore because asher has DISAPPOINTED him and the twins have solidarity over being stuck with him being awful to them)

i could talk about the twins and their dynamic for ages but it’s hard to explain

i posted a REEL on instagram (🤢) about abbey and her stepmum JOYYCEE (joyce belongs to @nathanarmageddon)

abbey is so miserable as a teen it all goes downhill and joyce is only trying to help her but. abbey is ANGRY at the world and at herself and at her family and she needs to stew in those feelings for a few years for processing reasons she is NOT open to help yet

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING FROM THIS POINT ONWARDS FOR ED, DEATH AND GENERAL STRUGGLES⚠️

a lot goes off when she’s a teenager that lights the slow fuse of the firework that is her brain

she develops an ED and other unhealthy behaviours and she hides it from everyone but they still suspect somethings up with her. she goes quiet and gets moodier and stops looking after herself with baths and brushing her teeth and it’s very noticeable.

after her and hanna fall out she becomes a MESS. she’s messed something up very dear to her and hates herself even more and it’s about to be everyone’s problem!! she hates herself so much she can’t be convinced that she can change she thinks she’s just rotten forever so it doesn’t matter if she lashes out at people

she gets a girlfriend (jenny) to distract her from everything. she likes the companionship. jenny just likes her. it’s very unhealthy and they argue a lot and prod at each others insecurities until jenny finds out about hanna and realises she was a rebound and that whole bin fire BLOWS UP

abbey basically turns into a younger female version of her dad. gets her feelings out by screaming at the people she cares about because it’s familiar to her she’s picked it up from HIM. and then she doesn’t want to get better she’s not used to being vulnerable anymore

it gets better for her but that’s a separate story!!

Should I show my nan this blog and see her reaction

Oh I love you @elvis-official

kate bush is so beautiful people should talk about how she’s aged more bc people will post old photos of her and go “she’s so ethereal” and i agree but can we talk about how the horrifying concept of time is made manageable by looking at photos from before the dawn in 2014

like i actually don’t mind the idea of getting older and the changes that come with it when i look at her and i’m the most insecure person i know and that’s awesome

Finished this section !!!!

Jenny gets nosebleeds a lot :( being bashed in the nose will do that to a girl

I’m trying to gain access to an old roleplay that has all her original lore I forgot so I can add some of it back in and I remember her having a really bad concussion and some issues that remained from that but. I’ve lost all my old notes and the chat won’t let me see anything from before 2020. And the admin is my previously estranged best friend. So I can’t pester for too many fixes without feeling like a bother. Help.

More Jenny except this time she’s older !!!

This is a wip from a larger page about her ! I wanted to show her body type a bit while still making the pose fitting to her personality. Most my characters have a bitta chub or just. No definition but jenny LOVES SPORTS so has a bit of muscle !!!!

My favourite lesbian ever most my characters are up for interpretation but she is the lesbian ever