He is the gentleman in my eyes. He is such a kind man, and he rejoices when I get home safely. He is a person who enjoys learning specifics about my day. Someone who looks out for my overall health and wellbeing. Someone who will remind me to get a good night's sleep so I can wake up early on the days of my exams. During my difficult day, he is someone who keeps telling me, "You will rock it." someone who offers me their prayers for a positive day at school. He is not the person I refer to as my lover, but rather as my best friend. I would defend my best buddy from everyone who is against him.
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This remembers me of him....
You know what sucks? Not only do I constantly want to see you and hug you and talk to you, I constantly want to talk about you to whoever will listen. I want to talk about how I miss you and want to see you. I want to ask people how you’re doing and what you’re up to. It sucks and I hate it.
On the topic of my best friend… my little sister told me that she thinks I’ll marry him one day, and even though I don’t think we’re in love even though we love each other, that we will one day.
I asked her why she thought that, because if a kid can say with such confidence you’re going to marry your best friend, you want to know what they’ve noticed. She listed off a bunch of reasons, like how we always spend time together, we’re comfortable together, we both are artists, we make each other happy and we feel safe when we’re around each other and how we both show up for the important things in each other’s lives.
And I get that maybe those all sound like healthy friendship things, and they are. But she isn’t the first person in my life to point out that my best friend and I are great together. We have strangers ask us how long we’ve been together, we had someone comment on how beautiful it was that we were on our art journey together and assumed we lived together, we’ve had co-workers ask about how we met and how long we’ve been together. I had a coworker tell me that she lived out dynamic and could see the way we supported each other, responded to each other and communicated without words, basically, the way we understood each other so perfectly. We have a friend from highschool who tells me constantly that she thinks we should be together by now, and asks me every time I see her if I’m dating him yet, to which I just laugh and shrug “we’re best friends”. My mum told me that he has more commitment and dedication than a friend, and doesn’t understand why we haven’t ever gone after more. She also commented to grandmother once that my best friend, was in fact, “grandson in law material”. My uncle told me over a coffee that he doubted he wanted to just be friends, that he was probably already in love with me.
And between the hugs that linger a little too long and are just a little too tight, and the walking so close that our arms are brushing but we’d never hold hands, and the comfortable silence yet knowing that no matter how long we talk for, we’d never run out of things to say, and the the casual “love you” at the end of every phone call, that maybe we accidentally became perfect lovers. And I thought maybe it was just me that had the temptation to pursue it, because adults have too much life experience and bias so how could I trust them when they say “I think he likes you more than a friend”. But my sister said it, and she’s not even 10 yet, and kids don’t lie about that, they don’t see love in places it isn’t.
So I guess I laughed a little, at her bold assumption, but really, it’s just the straw that broke the camels back and made me see, it’s always been him.
Soft drizzles outside, cup of coffee on the side, wearing cozy clothes, reading a book, notes scattered all over, soft songs playing in the background,being delusion, and there's some sort of peace in the room....probably this is what it means to live in the present.
Roses don't bloom quickly because, like any great work of art, beauty needs time to develop. Our love also blossoms in a very gradual, lovely way at its own speed, much like the rose. It's so lovely to witness how our relationship emits beautiful, wonderful sentiments at its own speed. Sometimes the thorns serve as a reminder that love may be painful, but the roses serve as a diversion and convince me that our love is also filled with beauty, affection, and passion. The rose will always represent how we are at our core true romantics.
(One week to go for valentine's day)
This is just so pretty 💕
Hey, can you make a mood board on the name "devi"
Sure Devi
Name moodboard: Devi
I seriously think boys need a apprecation post. So here it goes
Boys in general are really pretty and adorable.
Boys with slightly long and wavy hair. Boys who loves reading. Boys who loves talking about their interests. Boys who go head over heels for their significant other. Boy who have dimples. Boys who compliments. Boys who sing. Boys who like kids and nice to them. Boys who don't mock or tease on sensitive topics. Boys with brown eyes (those eyes glow under the sun). Boys who knows to control their anger. Boys who lets you know if they are busy (not to make you worried). Boys who like boybands. Boys who play instruments. Boys who don't degrade someone for doing something different. Boys who respects women.
Just ✨boys✨.