You Are Alive, Neil Abram Josten

okay so when declan lynch convinced himself that his childhood was cruel and unjust because if he admitted to himself that it was special it would mean having to confront the ugly grief he had for his father i felt that with my entire soul and will never get over it. by the way.

what’s the likelihood of ppl on hinge wishing I could be kissed bc they would beg just one off me or starting wars and burning cities for my true smile?

yeah.. that’s what I thought

“Ronan gave in to the brief privilege of hating himself, as he always did in church. There was something satisfying about acknowledging this hatred, something relieving about this little present he allowed himself each Sunday.” thinking about him every day

sets of brothers that make me feel feral

the twinyards (aftg)

the lynch brothers (raven cycle)

the most car ride of all time

ough.

i know it still hurts that you’ll never get an apology from them. so i’ll be the one to apologize to you. i’m sorry they didn’t value your kindness. i’m sorry you feel embarrassed and ashamed. i’m sorry people lie. i’m sorry someone preyed on your vulnerabilities. i’m sorry they tainted the concept of love for you. i’m sorry they didn’t respect your boundaries. i’m sorry you kept quiet just to keep the peace. i’m sorry you feel used. i’m sorry for all of it.

a fortuitous combination that focused most of the objects of ronan's worship into one downtown block. you know.

the biggest saddest eyes in class I exy :((

I chase the feeling of The Raven Cycle like Gansey chased Glendower. I will not explain further.