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High School Art Project #1 "Self Deterioration"

High School Art Project #2 "Paradigm Shift"

I see definitions of life, but not life.

T̵͕̳̜̗̱̑̀̚͜ͅà̵̮̳͇͉̝̲̩͖͌͗̑̂͛͝ḷ̵͕̜͉̣͚̇̎k̶̢͉͓̗̦͔̦̱̉͛̓̿̊́͑̃̍̆ͅͅ ̸̧̮͕͆̒͂̓̏͊̍̕̚t̷̩̯̏̽͠o̶̡̝̞͚̤̝͙͑͑̿̓̒̓͂̚ ̶̔̇̂ͅm̴͈̜̲̬̭͍͍͝ḛ̷̗̺̙̞͚̗̣̻̺̔̆͐̀͑ ̵̣͓͙̥̥̀̾̈́̓̽͊̾̽̚a̴̩̬̬̪̪͓͔͎̒͗͠s̸̳̞̘̟̅̑͌̃͝ ̵̢̨̫͓͎̼̖̙̳̺̒̑̂͋͑̍̕͝Ì̷̤̲͍͖̺̟̟̱ ̴̧̨͍̠̝͚̬̯͍̼̈͊ä̷̢̗̲̩́̓m̶̢̨̲̙͎͌̏́̍ͅ ̶̻͚͉͊́̉͆̚̕͝ͅs̸̨̳̅l̸̪̜̦͉͌̀ȇ̶̢͖͝ě̵̯̭̪͉͇͙̙͔̋̃̏̕͝ͅp̷̨̞̦̮̼͍͈̹̭̜͌͒̀̈͆́̈͒ị̵͚̪̻̙̳̰̒̃̊̀͌͛n̵̥͙͖͉̮̏̑̈́̃́͗́͂͜͝g̷̜̤͚̿,̴̢̩̗̜̙̤͈̤̈́̅̚ ̴̥̈́́͗͊̚h̷̬̞̫́ơ̶̺͓̤͉͊̅̓l̷͓͈̩͍͖̮̜̠̝̖̽̆̓̌̈́͆̆͠d̶̢̢̮͙̯̭̩̅̔̉́͗̓͘͜ ̷͇̺͇̀̃͌̕̚m̷̟͇̣̲̠̱̭͕̅͌̓̎͋̎͌̕͝ḙ̷͙͎͖̘̩̪͍̓̎̍̈́ ̸̯̣̳̻͂̂͜w̷̢̙͚͈̪̠͌͂̇̄̎̈́͊͛ͅͅȟ̴͚̜̳͕̝̈́̈́̕̕̚͝i̶͚̻̝͂̃̈́̎͝l̷̲̠̲̉̋̽̽̇e̸̛̻̰̬͖͐̈́͠͠ ̶̡͖̖̼̫͕͔̪̅̏Í̸̡̥̜͇̙͈̘̪̫͗̄̄́̀̍’̸̨̧̺̹̞͇̩͕̜̥̇̑m̵̩̮̈͛̃ ̶̬̫̐̅d̵̬͑̿̇̅͊r̵͈̺̘̖̪͒̐̀e̸̪̹̬̭͍͓͉̘̦̦͆̈̈́̓̆͑̓͘͝ã̸̮̘̹̻̥̠̳́̀̑̀͝m̸̨͉̣͂̽̂͛̑̓̕̕͝ḭ̵̜͖̗̦̫̠̱͛̓͑ͅn̸̘̦̹̻̘̝̎͛͆ͅg̸͔̤̤̹̹̩̹̍̈́̒͘

it's already mine it's already mine it's already mine

Non-dual rizz be like:

You’re my favorite illusion

You’re my favorite expression of “. “

You’re my everything and nothing

Your mental health is more important than trying to get all your desires in the physical world.

Your mental health is more important than trying to understand Non Duality.

Your mental health is more important than trying to kill the ego and become a Guru.

Your mental health is more important than trying to understand who created the universe and how you got here and what happens after the body dies.

Your mental health is more important than trying to become a Master Manifestor-Reality Shifter-Void Master-Demigod ™️ in the flesh.

All this trying is exhausting.

All you really want is inner peace. You assign people and objects to that inner peace but it’s always available to you through meditation. You can have every single crush and all the money in the world and still not be content, always getting bored and wanting more and more and more because you have no inner peace.

You yearn for the unconditional love and acceptance that only you can give yourself. There’s nothing wrong with loving people and loving the world, but first and foremost you want to love yourself and no one else can love you for you.

Happy Autumn 🍁 and be still.

“Getting”Desires 🪐

Guys when you think about something and desire it you are creating 2 characters, one who is desiring and one who has something. The truth is one does not have to change to become the other even tho you make it seem like Character #1 wants to become Character #2 it’s just part of the play. You are always Character #2 because both the characters are in your mind. Don’t fall into the trap of becoming/getting. Only identify with Character #2 right now in your mind (the source of all creation) do not try to become them bc you are still being Character #1 by doing that.

I once came across a Realitywarpingg post that said “you are God and you are all alone” and I was like “ok cool” but the more LITERALLY I start to take it the more terrifying it is. Why is it that people are so predictable? Why is the world so predictable? Why is it when I dwell on something I don’t like I see more of it and I ignore it it shows up less? Why does the world ALWAYS PROVE ME RIGHT? What’s with all the synchronicities? How can I be mad at people who are playing their roles perfectly whether I like the roles or not? In the beginning I didn’t understand Realitywarpingg but the more I question the more obvious it becomes. I keep imagining other people’s POVs but that is just imagination. MY imagination. 😭 And how do I know they still exist when I can’t see them? It feels insane to say I am all alone but that would also feel insane in a dream that I take to be true.

It happened again

Idk if y’all care but I want to share another experience. A vein in my hand was hurting for no reason and I look through the pain to find the source. Again there was no source and the pain dissipated. The same goes for emotional pain and thoughts, look for the source and they disappear.

Nothing Compares 🩵🪽

No person, place, or thing that brings you happiness can compare to the joy from Self that comes from within once you let go. The feeling is truly inexplicable. I guess Wholeness and Completeness are the best words I can use to describe it.

You realize that no matter what you experience it is all the same. That everything is equal because everything is only one Being. In the eyes of God, all stories and characters are equal. It’s beautiful when you can watch life like a movie and even the thoughts are just the movie character’s.

Every human being is searching for Wholeness although most think it is inside the world instead of right within their hearts. No matter how much we attain, if we don’t realize we are already whole, we will never be satisfied because every human being is trying to become one with everything. Lay down your weapons, take a leap of faith, and surrender to the One that is already everything.

Your mind wants objects, but your heart wants peace.

Pain is an Illusion

I’m a drummer so last night I had tendonitis from drumming too much but I remembered that there is no one inside the body to experience tendonitis, and this morning the pain is gone. You are everything, being an individual inside the body is a delusion.

https://www.tumblr.com/seraphic555/754775301735727104/how-to-see-through-the-illusion-of-memories-i?source=share

What does identification means? How do I identify? Could you give some examples?

For example right now when you see memories you think “those are MY memories.” Instead, just see them as belonging to no one, because there is already no one here for them to belong to. The person you think you are is just another thought.

How to see through the illusion of memories? I can't seem to drop them

You don’t need to force them to go away, just don’t identify with them when you see them and they naturally fall away from your awareness. Identification is always a choice.

Memory Creates Misery.

The only reason you seem to be limited is because you believe you are. If your entire life everyone around you told you that you were a limitless omnipotent being you would have no limits right now. Without memory there is no doubt, no fear, and no desire. Right now, ask yourself “Who am I without my memories?” Without memories there is no “reference” for what you can and cannot do. If you shed all memories there’s no “Oh yeah I can’t perform miracles because I’ve never been able to or society told me I can’t.” But memories are like a mirage in the desert, you look closely and realize they aren’t real just like any other thought. Last night I was watching my mind freak out because of wanting survival of the body, it brought up past memories as a reference point as to why the body was ill, and projecting a future of running out of money to pay for medication. Then this morning I woke up feeling different, in a dreamlike state, and I got the epiphany that memory is the root of all limitations. Anyway I started to play around with the idea of having no memories, and the invisible chains seemed to fall away. When doubtful feelings come up I see that it’s just a feeling, and each moment is a new moment so there’s no need to rely on the past. The whole world is like a dream now and I can’t wait for you all to experience this.

Earlier I was feeling anxious while out in public and I silently asked myself “who is anxious?” and I realized no one was there to be anxious, and I felt calm. The rest of the time while I was out, the person blended into the background, it was just part of the scenery. Emotions may arise, but they are happening to no one. Events may arise, but they are happening to no one.

How did you used to keep reminding yourself that you're "   ". How long did it take to reidentify with yourself from the character's perspective? Would love to hear your experience

It’s not a conscious reminder like an affirmation, it’s more like an automatic snap back into reality after remembering you are the consciousness projecting everything. Reidentification is instant as soon as you see what you are, it’s not a gradual process. The process is how long you can HOLD the identity. We will all eventually have full devotion to Self, it’s the ending of the game. I am at the phase where I still have a knee-jerk reaction of identifying with some thoughts but I have the permanent background of Self that I can always fall back into.

I think it’s way easier to fall into identification with the mind than the body, because it’s subtler and not something you can physically touch, but the “voice in your head” and images you get are still something you observe and not you. Thoughts should be treated as objects just like everything else you observe.

https://www.tumblr.com/seraphic555/748492710225346560/no-reason-to-stop-living-life

but what if things i wanna do are not possible in current physical illusion? for eg, i want to have an established business without the hassle of starting it etc.. that puts me in this weird cycle of wanting this “change” in illusion but

wanting means not having, and since we are THAT, everything already is

so im back to trying to know mySelf but then there is no trying and no seeking.. its all a very weird cycle..

please help

Seeking your Self is valid, because if you didn’t seek in the first place you wouldn’t even be here and you would just be like everyone else.

“And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.”

- Matthew 7:7 KJV

Seeking is necessary until you find yourself. And Permanent identification with God is necessary to do the works of God, and you can do this by returning again and again until it becomes more “natural” than your human identification. You can’t be the same limited human as always and suddenly have the power to change things.

I stepped away from tumblr for a while to really seek my Self fully and put into practice what I knew because I was tired of constantly re-identifying with the body. You can’t experience it a few times and ruminate over it 10x more than you experience. It’s only simple when you experience, NOT when you think about it. You have to experience it as many times as you need until it becomes your permanent identification instead of getting swayed by the body/mind again. So anyway I started doing guided meditations to release emotions first. Now I don’t really feel the need to do a guided meditation I can just acknowledge and release an emotion as soon as it comes up. Now I am more so focused on abiding in Self, consistently returning home, because when you return to your Self all the emotions and thoughts leave, even if just for a split second. Now when I start getting invested in storylines I’ll automatically snap out of the hypnosis and it’ll go quiet lol. And even when my mind doesn’t automatically go silent, I can just consciously observe it being noisy. It’s funny when you step back and observe, you realize the mind is like a tape recorder, just looping the same thoughts again and again, usually about the past or the future. When you realize the thoughts are just an observation and you are the observer, it really sounds ridiculous, like a broken record. Remember the end goal is complete surrender and death of personal identity.

You are already invincible, invisible, indescribable, with no life, no personality, no thoughts, and no anxiety.

You see a body, thoughts arise and you call it “me” and “my thoughts” (because people told you it was you) but where is the “me” who is thinking this? What even is a “me”?

(Notice how thoughts cease when you search for the “me” 🫢)

You could say you are the brain but what is keeping the brain alive? There has to be something prior to neuronal activity. Be THAT and throw away the sense of “I” which is the root of all suffering.

I used to think “I” was the highest state, but problems can exist where there is an “I”. If there is no “I” there is no “I have __” or “I am __” that is the start of all trouble 🙄.

Follow your Self

Don’t rely on the teachings of others to change your life. Only you exist and only you can change your life by whatever means you see fit. All these different teachings are just pointing you back to yourself, that’s why I don’t care if I use dualistic language because I don’t follow Non Duality like the Bible I refuse to adhere to any concept 100%. I just take what I resonate with from different concepts (we live in a conceptual world it’s impossible to avoid) and leave the rest. If you don’t resonate with a teacher that doesn’t mean you’re doing something “wrong” just follow what feels right to you. In the beginning it’s easy to see seemingly enlightened people as your savior and if you just follow in their footsteps you will become enlightened too, but your idols are actually just a creation of your mind. Notice how people only put the people they don’t know on a pedestal 🤔. Okay bye 🤪✌️

Heyy, I recently found your blog and found your posts very helpful :) and I was wondering if you could help me with something

I’ve been trying to get rid of my attachment with the ego now for about two weeks and I feel like I’ve made good progress. I know there’s no trying required since we’re already “that”, but I’ve seen other bloggers say to do it until self becomes your natural state. I can now be a witness to the ego and look down on my body knowing that’s not me. Kinda like an out of body experience. so I see the body typing this and doubting while knowing that’s not me. Though, Whenever I’m the witness, I don’t feel peace, instead I still feel the doubt that the ego has. So I’m just wondering if I’m experiencing self when I witness the body but still feel the feeling of doubt.

Sorry if this was confusing but thanks in advance!!

You’re always experiencing Self regardless of whether you’re feeling peaceful or doubtful because every emotion is Self. With that being said, there’s nothing wrong with striving for inner peace but don’t get so caught up in it that it has the opposite effect.

The entire world is in your mind which means whatever you consider “plausible” “possible” or “likely” happens. Once you start to defy the so-called rules of reality and return to your Self, everything will be considered possible to you.

Matthew 19:26 NIV:

Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

No reason to stop living life

Y’all just because you discovered ND doesn’t mean you have to stop “living your life” and do nothing. Go follow your dreams, you can have a career or go to college or be a scuba diver idc, you don’t have to spend all day trying to figure your Self out (a mistake I made) because you’re always your Self regardless of what you do or don’t do. Don’t be afraid to take risks and do whatever you’ve always wanted to do. We’re here for a reason (at least I believe that), let’s live a little 🤪

I think it’s easy to get into the doomer/nihilist mindset when you take anything too seriously lol

The entire universe is just a thought. Your entire life is just a thought. The body is a thought. Only you are real, but you believe the thoughts are more real than yourself.

Hey;)

If you don't mind I wanna know how this seemingly reality works ik all this is illusion but my awareness behind it is controlling it right even if it doesn't feel so?? Whatever I decide happens but how are we deciding those things that it seems like we have no control over

Well you give consciousness life because when the body is seemingly unconscious you don’t experience anything. You are aware OF things in your consciousness, awareness doesn’t control it. It is something beyond both awareness and consciousness that is in control, called Brahman or the Supreme Reality but it is actually you. You believed thoughts that say you’re not in control so now not being in control is what you expect. Like if you’re a lucid dreamer you expect to be in control of your lucid dreams and that’s why you are.

hii!! so, i really understand nd! the only thing im stuck on is how to deal with intense emotions, because it messes the character up so much, like when "I" start feeling insecure, and worrying and it just feels so painful and distressing and yeah... any "tips" ? thx :)

Insecurities are caused by what we think other people will think of us, but that is all a creation of the mind. Remember that your insecurities and worries are only in the mind, not in reality. Come back to reality (which says nothing), come back to the present moment.

What do I mean when I say “illusion”?

I’m not saying you are hallucinating as if you were on drugs or you need to stop seeing things, it’s more like one of those drawings where you can see a rabbit or a duck, but in reality it’s just ink.

Hey!

I'm really sorry deep into this that I got lost...

Sometimes I understand everything but then next moment I gave into those doubts 🙂...

But then next moment I read that I'm not even giving in, it's all appearance

So I'm letting these empty appearances doubt myself and always be dependent on others 😭

I don't want to

Don’t take this too seriously or look into it too much all you need to know is that you are Brahman and all “things” are illusions. Doubts, too. Take a break if you need to