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Mikey x Reader
So I felt like writing something depressing because we all need a little turtle love but some of us just need it differently. Sending my love to those of you with depression <3 Hope yall like it :)
Trigger Warning: Suicide, self harm, bullying, and depression.
Your life had always been bland and empty, it was something you’d learned to live with for as long as you could remember. That was… until you had met them. The turtles were the only people you had ever met who had ever given two shits about you. Your parents had neglected you for most of your life and the only friend you’d ever had had moved overseas to Ireland. The only good luck you’d had in your whole seventeen years was meeting the turtles two years ago.
They’d brought happiness into your world and made you feel human for the first time in your life, but out of all of them Mikey had helped you the most. You admire his strength and ability to lighten the mood, it had helped you on numerous occasions.
You really needed that today.
It was your birthday and as usual it seemed to be a day of torture. Every year something would happen to remind you that it was just another year people had to tolerate you and that you had to live through their torment. This time one of the girls in your foods class, who’d been partnered with you to take care of the laundry, had made a point of spilling bleach on you when the teacher wasn’t in the room.
She had pointed at you with a smirk and laughed. “Well maybe that will clean you up you filthy fat whore,” she’d announced, and the whole class laughed along with her.
You didn’t waste a second as you grabbed your backpack and ran out of the room to the sound of the whole class chanting, “(Y/N)’s a whore, (Y/N)’s a whore!”
Tears clouded your vision until you no longer knew where you were going, but you didn’t care, not anymore, there was no more reason to. At one point you caught sight of your reflection as you were passing a store window, bringing you to a halt. You looked awful. Your favorite dark orange shirt was already fading to white in messy splotches and so were your skinny jeans. Your beautiful (h/c) hair was covered in the nasty chemical making it crusty and plain out gross as it dripped from the tips onto the sidewalk, but the stench was the worst part. You saw a lady give you a disgusted look as she passed by and you ducked your head in shame before diving into the nearest alleyway and lifting up the closest manhole cover. During your time with the turtles your strength had grown and lifting the covers had became second nature.
You ran through the sewers as the memories flooded your vision. (Y/N)’s a whore! (Y/N)’s a whore! (Y/N)’s a whore!
“I’m a stupid fat whore…”
The words were barely a whisper, but the second they fell from your lips fresh tears fell in turrets and you had to stop moving as sobs racked your body. Why? Why did everyone need to remind you how useless you were? You knew no one cared, you’d accepted the fact a long time ago, no one loved you enough to care if you were gone. The thoughts and sobbs lasted only a few minutes before you took a few shaky breaths to calm yourself and continued walking.
When you arrived at the front doors to the lair you stopped. You wiped your eyes to make sure there were no remaining tears staining your cheeks for them to discover before you took another deep breath and walked in.
The first thing you noticed upon entering was that the lair was warm and smelled like pizza. You heard laughing to your left and looked up the small set of stairs to where the table was to see that the boys were eating pizza and betting on who would win the arm wrestling match that was going on between Leo and Raph.
You couldn’t help but feel happiness surge through the darkness at the sight, it brought back memories of happier times.
Back when you used to live with them for days at a time, during which you would wake up to Leo and Raph fighting and be the one to break them up. Back when you and Mikey would watch videos and spend all night talking about God knows what. Those were the days you lived for, the days you only had to worry about if Leo would burn dinner, or if Donnie would pass out from sheer exhaustion, or what you and Mikey would talk about that night…
The phone call had changed it all. Your parents demanded you come back, if you didn’t they’d take extreme measures. You didn’t want to find out what those were so you packed your things and prepared to leave after all the boys went to sleep that night, but as you were leaving you woke Mikey.
The argument you two had that night was one you’d rather not remember, but it seemed you could never get it out of your mind. It seemed to be burned there like a lingering scar in your memory.
He had refused to let you go. When you asked him why he refused to answer, just kept trying to convince you to stay. Your voices had steadily raised until the volume had woken his brothers and even Splinter. After a while you’d had enough and as you began to leave he had screamed at you that he didn’t want to see you hurt. That had been a year ago and as far as the brothers knew you were doing fine, better actually. They had no idea what things were really like...
You smiled and walked over, dumping your backpack at the foot of the small stairs, joining in on the fun.
Both turtles were straining and holding eye contact as they attempted to out gun the other. You laughed a little causing all attention to go to you as Raph flexed and pinned his older brother’s arm to the table.
“Ha, looks like I win Fearless.”
“It doesn’t count if I was distracted Raph,” Leo growled as they both looked at you.
Mikey gasped. “Dude what happened to you?” he asked as he looked you over.
You flinched a bit but smiled and said, “an accident with bleach in foods, a girl tripped and spilled bleach on me, nothing major.”
All the brothers seemed to gasp at the same time. “Nothing major?” they shouted in unison.
“Did she do it on purpose?”
“Did you tell a teacher?”
“Did ya knock ‘er out?”
“Did it get in your eyes?”
“Woah, woah, woah, guys relax!” you shouted, “it’s ok, the teacher wasn’t there so I left but I didn’t feel like going home so I came here instead. No there’s none in my eyes, just all over my clothes and hair. And no, Raph, I didn’t beat her up.”
Raph threw up his hands. “Well ‘scuse me for wondering if that girl got a proper ass whoopin.’”
“Looks like your clothes are ruined Angel Cakes, we should get you washed up while Donnie calls April.”
Mikey led you to the bathroom as Donnie took out his phone and dialed said girl and Leo and Raph went back to arguing about who had won their earlier fight.
As you entered the guest bathroom Mikey helped you take off your shoes while you grabbed a towel from beneath the sink. Out of the corner of your eye you saw Mikey scanning over your facial features, so you tried to keep them from showing the pain you felt. “Are you sure you’re ok (Y/N/N)?”
You smiled at the nick name and nodded encouragingly. “I promise Mikey, I’m fine. Just in desperate need of a shower,” you admitted sheepishly.
The orange clad turtle looked you over another time before smiling and getting up. “Well then I’ll let you take your shower. Holler at me if you need anything,” he said with a wink before lightly ruffling the dry part of your hair.
As the door shut behind him you let out a sigh and began to undress. You stepped into the shower and turned the knob as far as it could go. As the scalding water ran over your skin you found your thoughts wandering back to the dark places they had been treading through earlier. A tear streaked down your cheek but you didn’t notice as it mixed with the water running over your face. The water had reached an almost unbearable temperature by the time you turned to wash yourself off, but you barely even registered it as your thoughts roamed to desperate places. You were only half aware of your actions as you washed your body and shampooed your hair. You were only focused on the thoughts invading your mind.
(Y/N)’s a stupid fat whore!
Why can’t you follow orders like your sister.
You’ll never be anybody special.
Get your head out of the clouds, you can never be anything useful with all your daydreams.
Take a hike bitch.
What guy would want you?
Tears had begun to stream down your cheeks as memories flooded your mind and you finished washing your hair. There was something deep inside your soul that wanted to scream, to cry out for help, but what if they were right. What if nobody cared? What if nobody wanted you?
Your thoughts suddenly turned to Mikey. Would he care when you were gone? Would he cry and beg for you to come back?
No.
No one would.
A hand reached out and grasped your razor. You could end it. You could make it stop. Make the dull ache in the backs of your heart and skull disappear and the torment of your soul stop. You felt a slight sting as the razor dug into the skin of your left arm. The smell of blood filled you sinuses as you looked down to see the cuts bleeding. The wounds helped clear your thoughts as you dragged the sharp metal object across your arm again, and again, and again before switching to your other arm. Relief flooded your senses as the pain took over, but it wasn’t enough. You needed more.
You stepped out of the shower and into the foggy bathroom, barely able to see anything. Without letting go of the razor you wrapped your towel around you and stepped in front of the fogged up mirror. You swiped your hand across it, revealing your face. Your sad (e/c) eyes, your pale face, and the bags underneath your eyes. No one should have to live life like this. No one.
A knock on the door brought you out of your thoughts.
“Hey (Y/N), April dropped off some clothes and the rest of the bro’s went into the dojo to train so-” his words were suddenly cut off before he knocked on the door again, this time louder, “are you ok? There’s super steamy air coming out from under the door. Can I come in?”
Your breathing hitched in your throat as you reached over and locked the door. Not seconds later you heard the doorknob rattling as Mikey attempted to enter. His shouting grew and you knew that he could easily have Donnie taking the door off it’s hinges in a matter of minutes so you turned to look into the mirror as you held the metal against the skin of your neck.
BOOM!
The door shook as Mikey kicked it, almost sending the door flying. The door was suddenly pulled in the opposite direction to show Mikey at the same time that blood started to run down your neck.
Baby blue eyes met (e/c) as he stared at you with a pleading look. His usually bright demeanor was completely gone, replaced with sadness and above all, fear. You could see his hands shaking as they slowly reached out to you.
“(Y/N).”
You inhaled sharply. Although the words were barely audible they held more meaning than anyone else would ever understand. He rarely called you by your first name and he had never looked at you like that before.
It was then that all of the dark thoughts began to fade from your mind as you realized that all your earlier thoughts were false. Against your will your arms fell to your side and the razor dropped to the floor.
In mere seconds Mikey had his arms around you as the razor slid across the floor.
“Shhhhh, it’s ok (Y/N). I’m here. Please don’t ever do that again, you scared the shit out of me.”
His words barely registered in your mind as you finally let loose and slumped against his form. Your tears ran free and your sobs were so loud it hurt. You tried to hide the sounds against his neck but as his arms tightened around your shaking figure your walls began to crumble.
“I love you, please don’t leave me,” you whispered as you clung to him.
“I won't sweetheart, I promise. I- I love you too (Y/N). I’ll do anything to see you happy again,” he pushed you back a bit so he could look you in the eyes, his baby blue orbs moist with tears, “just promise me you’ll let Donnie take care of your cuts and that you’ll talk to me next time, I don’t want to see you so hurt.”
As his arms wrapped firmly back around you you felt all your walls caving in, the caution tape around your heart being ripped away, and your heart finally seemed to beat to in time with the universe.
And finally, you were at peace, you were home.
You nodded, a small smile gracing your features through the tears. “I promise.”
This is @HopeDiAngelo from Wattpad and @hopediangelo on Insta, the author of Destined fanfic.
I am having a severe block rn. Please request smn so I can get back into writing...... I can write:
Percy Jackson/ Heroes Of Olympus
Harry Potter
MARVEL
Boku No Hero Academia
I can also try JJK and Demon Slayer but I haven't read even a bit of the manga
Or just make a new character according to your needs?
Oh, and, if you are reading this and ship Percico please check out Destined on WP? Or not, no pressure, I mean! UPDATE: So, I had to unpublish by story due to plagiarism. You can message me here(or in WP or Insta) if you really wanna read it...... here is what I wrote in description if you are interested:
Hi. This is my first work ever, therefore, please excuse my sorry butt for being unexperienced. So, here goes nothing:
Nico felt somewhat empty as he walked towards Will Solace after clearing things up with Percy. He still loved him, even though he had just said otherwise. He didn't want things to be cleared up. He wanted to latch himself to even the last bit of hope left. But he was also scared, scared that he might be left with nothing if he put even a little bit more into the hope. Nothing at all.
I do not own any characters unless I say so. They are all owned by Uncle Rick. I also do not own the art in the cover.
E-Eyo 😳👉👈 t-this kinda cu-cute👀😳💕💜✨👉👈
Y’all better check it out😳👉👈✨💕👀🙈🤭
Longarm/Shockwavex[Human¡]Reader
Request by @coffee-cupps : What if you wrote some Longarm/Shockwave (mainly Longarm) x emo! Depressed! Reader (human)? Hahah jkjk...u-unless? 😳👀👉👈
Ps. Made it into a Hc cuz I wasn't sure how to make it work ,I hope u like it (:💖🙏
Warning: theme of depression,kidnapping at the end ,the author never met or seen an emo irl
Shockwave side : Let's say he mostly choose to hang out with you to kinda make himself less suspicious to everyone and You were a perfect choice ,you were calm and didn't bother to talk to anyone and had a good fashion sense for a human
You didn't actually have a choice if you wanted him as your guardian or anything he just kinda low-key took you and was like yeah this human is my friend yeah
Bumblebees was like woah cool and 100% annoyed him even more but hey at least he is doing his work without any worries
The downside of this cover up plan that he had to spend time with you a lot so you don't get suspicious of him and the more time he spent with you the more he noticed you might be a bit....Good for a human
Longarm side : well he is like the best bot to hang out with even you're 100% sure he is using you for something but you don't know what it is so you roll with him and hey at least you have a friend who kinda doesn't question you much when look tired af Or saying dark jokes about yourself or about your taste of music or choice of clothing
Or when you kinda don't talk to him for days or appear at the base for weeks ,or when look like you haven't showered or eaten for Days ,you are really grateful he just leave you alone most of the time actually,it's easier to kinda deal with things when you're alone not burdening anyone with your problems because who cares anyway
You relationship with him was mostly him and You hanging out around the team and him keeping you around whenever he need you ,you would talk and he would listen ,he never question you so you were okay of how things were going between the both of you
That's till one day he just snatched you outta of nowhere while you were walking home and took you to a wooden area away from ppl
You might have feared for your life if you actually cared much about it
" OKAY DUDE WHY THE FUCK YOU DID THAT????" You yelled at him as he put you on the ground and looked at you with....some sort of emotions in his optic you can't identify
" I have been doing a little bit of research on human behaviours lately " he told as he put his hand on his head
" and ??? What does it have to do with me?" You asked him clearly confused from where the sudden change of his behaviour
" when were you planning to tell me that you were-" "emo? Yeah I thought it was clear-" "NO not Emo that's clear as the sun , I meant to ask when were you going to tell me you have the illness that human call 'depression' ,it is a quite serious matter isn't it ? " he question you ,he is looking at you waiting for an answer
"Oh" shit he figured that out quicker than your parents oh fuck quickly you played the best excuse you can pull
" actually I am just sad sometimes that's all let's just..go hang out yeah? " you told him and You can hear him ex-vetnting Deeply
" we are not leaving till you speak the truth [y/n] '' he spoke clearly upset at you trying to lie to him about this
" Fine yeah you might be right Yeah what you will do now?tell me to suck it up or leave me because guess what I don't care " you said with the fake confident of yours that you put to shield yourself from the fact you are about to cry
Longarm tens up as his optics look at your teary eyes and he hug you ,you try to escape the hug but he hug you tightly ,and You let a son out then you cry ,For the first time since what felt years ,you cry your heart out and You speak about your worries and anxieties and he is patting your head awkwardly
" there....there...You know I'm here...for you....You don't need to keep all this to yourself..i am here for you...i will take care of you...you are never alone as long I am here " he tells you as he try to wipe your tears away but fail ,you smile at his attempt as you sniff
" thank-Thank you Dude..Ah...Thank you"you hug him tightly and he pause ,he mentally curse himself as he speak" no problem(y/n) that's what friends for after all '' he spoke as he felt as someone had his spark on fire
Well after that conversation in the woods your relationship become more wholesome vibes since he started to his care and loving side more to you and he almost always assured you that you're one the best thing he ever met
You both often spent time in the woods to talk about everything that bothered you and have moment of peace from everything
You both grew closer and closer and it was like a perfect fairy tale expect it was with a giant alien robot and a tiny human who had no care for this world
Everything was going great....
That's till you get the news from bumblebee that longarm was the spy they were looking for ,he was in fact not even Longarm ,he was some Bot named shockwave who took identity of longarm and was using you as a way to keep his cover
Your heart broke by that news,you knew it was too good to be true....You were such a fool ,you sat down as you kinda had the worst ugly crying of your life ,and bumblebee for once knew his humour won't light this up ,so he keeled next you and hugged you ,you were alone again...
And of course You didn't notice the red optic that was watching you and Bee from a distant......
Few weeks later after basically barely eating for days or taking care of yourself you decided to go for a walk to clear your mind so you walked and walked roll you reached the woods...and you kept walking,you were trying to clear your mind while listening to your favourite band....You thought to yourself how once these woods were the spot of having fun with him are now just a bitter reminder of the past...
" [Y/n] " you heard your name begin called....but you were alone...great depression and now haunting voices ,you ignored whatever the fuck was that and continued walking then you stopped dead I'm your track as you are now face to face with noun other than that BITCH*shockwave* his red optic is staring right at your soul "YOU MOTHERFUg-"
He cut you before you continue" [y/n] do not resist" he said before you got any chance to even realized why he said that ,he reached out for something that released gas and you suddenly felt sleepy...shit.and found yourself falling to the ground before you found yourself begin held by...him...You couldn't even tell him to screw off before you slipped to dream land
Finely shockwave ex-vented deeply as he held you closer to him and put his helm on your shoulder, he is going to make sure you are happy again ,he is going to take care of you just like promised
He is your friend after all
Right ?
I hope u liked it :D , I hope I did justice for you 💕💕😳 ,stay safe y'all and remember If Shock wave approaches you,Run ,Run for your dear life ,he doesn't understand personal space