Immortal Merlin - Blog Posts

Merlin becoming unhinged and paranoid after being alive for 1500 years. Merlin not eating for 1 week straight before he goes like "oh right" because he fucking forgot. Oh, the elevator in his apartment building is out of order, but he has to go to Lake Avalon. Oh well. He's gonna use the stairs. And by "using the stairs" I mean throwing himself from the staircase. It's faster this way! He's gonna break a few bones and give himself a concussion but hey, he's immortal, so it's ok! Merlin walking outside and glancing behind his back every 3 seconds when someone looks like has been walking behind him for a bit too much of a time. Merlin having a tons of locks on his front door. Because you never know. Merlin talking with people and that voice in his head screaming at him "don't form connections with them, don't you dare become attached to them, because that's how it starts. You make small conversations with people, then you become friends, and the next thing you know they find out about your magic and they try to kill you or they just die because they're mortal." (definitely not from experience, nuh-uh). Merlin having weapons somewhere hidden in his house just in case he's in danger and his magic doesn't work for whatever reason. A minor inconvenience happening and Merlin just going "fuck. Oh well, let me just- *throws himself from the top of a building*. Merlin finding out he's neurodivergent. He doesn't really have to mask anymore, he hasn't been doing that for a while because he's all alone so no one will care and also because nowadays no one gives a shit. Him being neurodivergent explains so much (personally I'm an ADHD Merlin truther lol). Merlin having abandonment issues, which is also another reason why he refuses to connect with people. Because hey, better to be never loved than be loved and lose it, right? Merlin considering himself something more than human. Not in the "haha, I'm more powerful than everyone else, lmao" way, but in the "I have all this power in my hands yet the world is still shit, I'm a failure, why couldn't I be like everyone else?" way. All these stuff don't even have to revolve around Arthur or Camelot, it can be just the brain trying to comprehend 15 centuries worth of trauma.

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The Purge began with the death of Queen Ygraine and the birth of Arthur. Before that, magic was legal and quite well-known amongst the nobility and common people, just a part of everyday life.

Leon would have been about 5 at the time magic was banned. Maybe six, as it took time for laws to be implemented across kingdoms.

There is a possibility there were people in his household who had magic. Maybe a servant who could clean his muddy clothes in a split second, so he didn't get into trouble. Maybe a nanny, or a tutor who could make the figurines in his storybooks come to life.

If Leon's father is half the man Leon is, there is a real possibility that his morals would have overshadowed his loyalty to the crown. So when the word comes by the King's messenger that all magic users are to be burnt alive, he send him back with the assurance that it will be done.

But instead, he start plotting.

Those who learnt magic and could stand to give it up did so. Those who couldn't, born with the innate ability, got help from a mysterious source to flee in the middle of the night, across the border to Dyfed and take a boat out of Albion, where magic was still welcomed.

And Leon, who is a curious little child, and confused as to why his father is disobeying the king, asks him knew night. And his father tells him "A man's loyalty to his morals must come before his loyalty to the crown, or he is bit a man at all, but a puppet with a sword."

And Leon remembers.

Leon obeys the crown. He joins the knighthood like his brothers, he serves his king, and he carries out Uther's orders without question.

And nobody but him notices when his blade cuts through grass or just tents instead of people. Nobody but him notices when his coin bag mysteriously falls a few feet away, conveniently right in front of the druid child hiding in the bushes. Nobody but him notices when he helps a child escape up a tree.

But the druids notice.

They notice when the child starts talking about the noble Knight of Camelot who helped them escape. And them another, who told them the same, and then another. It adds up.

So when their beloved Knight is dying, of course they will take notice. Of course they will pray to their goddess. Of course they will use the most powerful tool they have, the cup of life, to bring him back.

Even Gods listen when so many pray. They grant him the gift of immortality.

The druids aren't the only ones who notice.

The servants notice. They clean his armour, and his weaponry. Each and every time, it comes back bloodless. And if it doesn't, it's certainly not bloody enough to have been in a massacre.

Servants talk. Eventually, word reaches Gwen. And then, in her adorable way, she blurts it out at the most inopportune moment.

And Merlin finds out.

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ima add some thoughts to this….

Merlin would either immediately tell Leon about his magic like and idiot or not tell him anything and just get really close to him.

Everyone, including Leon, was heavily confused at to why Merlin was trying to get so close to Leon, he was practically stalking him.

Once Leon bumped into some Druids on patrol and was talked to them, Merlin, who was following him, tried to hide and hoped that none of them would notice him.

Of course, the Druids noticed and called him out, thinking surely Leon knew about Emrys and who he was.

And obviously, he didn’t.

Merlin realizing he had been caught, stepped out from the trees.

Leon was confused and terrified of Merlin being there.

Why was he here? Was he following him? Why? Would he tell Arthur what he saw?

Then he realized that the Druids had called him Emrys.

From being around the Druids so much Leon must have heard about Emrys, which only made him more confused,.

Why were they calling Merlin Emrys? Wasn’t he almost a god to the Druids? Merlin wasn’t a god. He was Merlin.

Apparently Merlin was not just Merlin, he was Emrys.

Leon and Merlin had a long talk after that, both having to explain the full story to each other (mostly on Merlin’s part)

They both grew very close after some awkward few days of processing what they learned about each other, so much so that people started to suspect they were courting.

Their denies of the accusations were not taken seriously, thinking they were just trying to keep their courtship secret.

Eventually, Arthur found out, who was not happy about two of his best friends courting.

Arthur demanded answers they couldn’t give, especially when Arthur wouldn’t take them just being friends as an answer.

So, as a last resort, they bought into the lie of them courting. Saying that they just realized their feelings over time.

This lie worked for a while, people still asked questions but most of them accepted the fact they wanted to keep their relationship lowkey.

This worked until they actually started to have feelings for each other.