Your gateway to endless inspiration
Hyper Fixation - Blog Posts
Kaisagi Nation be rising up rn, especially with the chapters that have been coming out.
Kaiser fans 🤝 Isagi fans rn: bc they’re both leveling up bc of each other and the Kaisagi nation is just: Yippie!!
(Ngl I’m starting to f with it, especially bc they’re being named Guns N‘ Roses duo on TikTok rn. I was like: eh at first but then the edits and names and new chapters…. Like I’m trying ok!! But I’ve now officially slipped into the rabbit hole of the Guns N‘ Roses duo😭 *whispering: I’m not actually upset about it*
They caught my ears, my eyes and now it’s a hyperfixation…
List of random obscure stuff I'm fascinated with for no reason, or maybe there is a reason, but I'm too tired to figure it out:
1. Small spaces that aren't really safe given the overall environment, but that still feels safe for whatever reason. (Ex. 2D's underwater room from Plastic Beach, my own room, horror game safe rooms, the backseat of cars driving at night.)
2. The cold. Any version. The Arctic, snow in Texas, the sound of a box fan in the middle of winter. Snow. I like the cold. I like walking in it and having it surround me.
3. Blue noise. The ambiance noise. It's my favorite kind. It sounds cold. Ain't that neat?
4. Early 2000s nostalgia. This one's more understandable, considering I grew up in the 2000s. Particularly focused on the technology because young me was a big fan of the 'puter. Throw in a DS, and I'm sold.
5. Nautical stuff. I know next to nothing about sailing, but you bet your ass I love me some boats and sailors. Oh, or lighthouses and lighthouse keepers. Not so much pirates as just old people sailing boats. Make it cold and thats even better. Like that one oil rig horror game? Loved it. The ocean is cool too sometimes. Especially stingrays. Love em. You know what actually?
6. Stingrays. Funny dudes. Favorite animal. Any kind of ray, really. Mantaray, eagle ray, cownose ray... I think they're very cool.
7. Carousels. I like the pretty horses, fucking sue me. I'd like to design them, especially the ones with all types of animals. The ones on boardwalks or outside aquariums in particular are very cool because they have all the sea creatures.
Having depression and autism plus hyper fixations is crazy cause whaddya mean I was sobbing uncontrollably unable to leave my bed this morning but now I’m jumping around and squealing with joy cause I read a cool comic book???
You know the Billy Batson brain rot is strong when bully starts auto correcting to Billy
Omg I'm getting a new hyper fixation noooooo
Ok, but does anyone else remembers The edge chronicles?
Because I red the series when i was in elementary school and recently had gotten back to it and OMG. ITS SO FRICKING GOOD.
So far I've only red the twig trilogy, The Gloamglozer's curse, and two of the Rook trilogy, but i'm looking for the other books and will read them as soon as i can
I LOVE THE DRAWINGS SO MUCH CHRIS RIDDLE IS THE GOAT
I'm currently obsessing's over the series so expect some fanart, though i could never replicate the beauty of the original art. -I'm open to discussions if anybody is interested:)-
I dont usually hyperfixate over fandoms but- this year its something new lmao
*im so fucki normal about him IM SO FLNORMAL YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE ME PLEASE
i just realized i have like at least 10 pmd universes i feel like that’s an unhealthy amount
Did a bit of a twist on this one… #hyperfixation
And now for a personal episode of "Oh my god, THAT'S A THING?!"
I'm in heaven
Yuh, coming up with straight up fanfics, and then I'm like; "Yo I should post this idea online so a writer could possibly write it." And then I don't because I get busy and forget.
I think my favorite thing about finding a new hyper fixation is getting the massive dopamine release when maladaptive daydreaming about me interacting with whatever the hf is.
Mild spoilers for the manga up to this point and I'm too lazy to deeply proof read.
Ciel Phantomhive is all I can think about so here's my thoughts
He's 13. He's a 13 year old kid surrounded by death and dispare. It honestly haunts me how young he is. Like I have siblings that age so when people go on about how anyone he is, what would you expect? This a kid that's pretending to be an adult. He lost his family at 10; he kidnapped, violated, and enslaved at 10; he watched his brother die in front of him at 10; and all people can say is that he's annoying. He's traumatized and a teenager. I'm surprised he's still going.
I cannot stop thinking about how lonely he must be. He's right hand is a demon. His servants are all people who have lost something or had nothing. No one there is capable of having normal conversations or social behavior (besides maybe Tanaka). I don't think he could ever just be 13 and it's kinda upsetting.
Everytime I read about someone close to him dying and the way he just moves on? I know he sad but dang does it hit hard. He doesn't know how to grieve and probably no one will ever teach him how.
He's really alone. Everyone tries, but no one is ever allowed close enough. I think he does it out a fear or as a defense mechanism. It's so much harder to feel loss if there's no one close in the first place. Thinking about Agni and Soma and how it ended and how he was like "This is why I told you not to get involved with me". So he knows he's bad news. Then there's the fact he's pretending to be his twin.
So he surrounded by people who love him because they think he's someone else. He also knows he's the "spare." Which fueled his decision.
He also definitely has self depreciating tendencies as show in the manga. When he has his break downs, we get a peak of just how terrible his mental state is. Sebastian doesn't help either so this man is really going in no actual support system.
His life is on a counter. Once the contract he has with Sebastian is fulfilled, that's it. Even if somehow he doesn't die, what would that do for him? Does he even have a will to live outside this? No matter what happens there will be no real happy ending for our Ciel Phantomhive. His story will always be a tragedy.
I have been sent to the corner 😅
My friend doesn't want to hear about my headcannons so time to harass the Internet~
Hear me out: Genshin Daycare. Aka...Everyone but the Archons (plus Nevulliette) as little children.
Ugh it's gonna rot my brain if I don't talk about it...To the drafts!
WHY CAN'T I HYPERFIXATE ON WOMEN
I ONLY EVER HYPERFIXATE ON FICTIONAL MASCULINE PRESENTING CHARACTERS
THIS IS BULLSHIT
Pals help, not only am I hyper fixating on Bill Cipher I'm starting to hyper fixating on That's Not My Neighbor
Help
That's not my neighbor but instead of being the doorman it's just Stanford thinking everyone is possessed by Bill
If you are with me, only me, giving me all your attention, its like a sun in my head.
The shadows disappear. You make them disappear easily. You are my sun. I would do everything for you. I mirror you to be perfect for you.
But the sun is hot as fire and fire burns everything down.
If you go, the sun goes. The shadows are back, worser. Because you aren't there.
And suddenly i am alone. You hate me. You will leave me. You play with me. You will replace me.
Then you text me a simple "Hey, can you help me later?"
And even though the shadows stay, i feel useful. I look forward to help you.
But then there are other people to help you too. And i am useless again. Replaceable.
But I help you. My body hurts and feels heavy, but I am here to help you.
And once you don't need my help anymore, once i get into the safe place of my own four walls, i collapse. It hurts, really much.
Is that what dying feels like? Its probably more peaceful.
The flames that 'save' me are also the flames that easily 'kill' me. I wonder if my shadows ever hurt you?
No split was ever strong enough to break my attachment to you. You say "come here" and i run. Because i have a task. I am useful.
I don't love you romantically. You are like a older sibling.
I am sorry. I know I am unhealthy obsessive. Also i don't know how to stop it. I just try & fight to keep the chaos inside of me.
You are my favorite person.
I hate you, but my love for you will always return. Even if i kill you in the back of my mind, one single nice word of yours revives you.
My inner child can sleep trough the whole night if i am at your place.
You showed me how to live.
You will always be the most Important person for me. Even if you do replace me one day. As long as I live, i am here for you.
I mean it. With two broken legs i would get up for you. Only you.
AAAAA THE HYPERFIXATION OS CONSUMING ME AHSGSJWGUWJDJEIEHEBDIFI
I GET TO RANT ABOUT WILL WOOD FOR 5 MINUTES TO MY CLASS‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
my autism is autisming
ITS BACK MY HYPERFIXATION IS REVIVED ‼️‼️‼️‼️
i love will wood
HES LITERALLY SO GENDER AND HES AMAZING AND WHEN I HEAR HIS VOICE I LITERALLY ASCEND. ALSO ALL HIS PROJECTS/BANDS HE WAS IN BEFORE WWATT ARE SO AMAZING. LIKE HEATHERS BIG BREAK BY JAMFACE IS AMAZING AND YUMMY. HIS LYRICS THO ARE SO YUMMY TOO.
RAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ‼️‼️‼️‼️
You know what, screw it *drops Dreamsmp Ninjago au* Dreamsmps your Ninjago